First Tooth


Well 2 days ago I was feeding some food to Aedan off my finger and to my suprise felt a razor sharp edge, I couldn't figure if it was in his food, but then realized Aedan had cut his first tooth.... a top tooth !

Upon inspection, we could tell a second one had broken on the bottom as well.... could feel it's sharpness, but it wasn't visable yet , though it is today.

Today I can also feel the second bottom one and the top gum for that last 4th front tooth is so swollen it's about to come through too.

Saying goodbye to gummy smiles is a little hard but I am welcoming those big toothy grins!
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Baby it's Cold Outside...

Aedan really wanted out for a walk today, it was so cold, we only had a short time out. He so loves going outside though so he spent lots of time looking out a window... poor baby - it's too cold outside for mamma!

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Future Teenager

So I think my Camera can see the future, Cause I'm sure this is the face of my future teenager!

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Merry Christmas!!!

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This Mamma's got a Rebel!


Well Drew really spoiled me this year and got me a Cannon Rebel. I'm on a learning curve with it, but already I'm impressed with the sharp pics I'm getting on it's automatic settings, I'm trying to remember all my old stuff for working the manual settings and learning how to use all the new digital filters... I've got a new toy!!
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Big Smile!

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Video of Aedan climbing the stairs

He's such a big boy!!! - now to teach him how to climb back down.

Aedans walking continued

For this past week Aedan has been taking unassisted steps, somewhere between 5 and 7 steps before falling down. He attempts it nervously and then falls into my arms.

Yesterday at the early years center he crawled right up to their favourite walker and wouldn't let it go as he zoomed back and forth for an hour, with me of course changing it's direction for him each time he hit a wall.

Then tonight, Aedans confidence in walking pepped up, he is now taking over 20 steps before deciding he's through or falls down.

It's amazing to watch him, he so proud of himself... I'M so proud of him... but at the same time there is this deep bittersweet ache watching my baby transform from infant to toddler... He might be ready to walk, but I guess part of me that loved cuddling my tiny swaddled bundle that stares deep into my eyes just isn't ready to let go.

Goodnight lights

Aedan and I have a bedtime ritual. After getting bathed, diapered and dressed into snuggly Pyjamma's we wander through the house saying goodnight to all the lights as we turn them out one by one.

At first, a few months ago, it was just me waving at them.

Then I slowly held up Aedans arm and waved it while I waved with my other hand

Now he is quite good at waving goodnight on his own as he looks at the light and waits for it to click off.

Well Daylight savings has come and gone, and Aedan is none the wiser of the new time. Aedan is often ready for bed by 7:00 - 7:30, that would now be 6:00 - 6:30

We hadn't done bath or reading or any other bedtime things yet, we are trying to hold off Aedan and change his clock.

But before a single eye rub, at 6:15 Aedan started waving at the lights in the house. It's so cute to see my little boy using our little ritual to tell us he's tired.

So without anymore delay, we skipped bath time, quickly put on a fresh diaper, and he is left in his T-shirt from the day, nursed down and sleeping peacefully.

Goodnight light, Aedan is going to sleep tight tonight!

Dear Aedan

Today is a big day for you.

Today at 12:52 marks you living your life in the real big world longer than you lived inside mommy's tummy.

You Celebrated this moment by taking your very first unassisted steps at that very minute.

We are SO PROUD of you!

Love Mommy and Daddy!

Baby Legs

I Was interested in Getting Aedan some "Baby Legs" a type of Leg warmer for babys, good for crawling, diaper changes, quick and easy... But Expensive @ 12-16 a pair + shipping... OUCH! Do you know how many diapers that could buy??

Then I found This site showing me how to make them myself.

The first pair I took over an hour staring in confusion at the directions and pictures... But when I figured it out, I could pop them out in less than 10 minutes a pair. Aedan now has a rather LARGE wardrobe of baby legs that we hope will keep him warm.

After I filled a small drawer with my modified socks, I decided to teach our play group a couple weeks back. Fun was had by all, we have many baby's sporting their own warmers in our group now.

And Now my friend Jen is interested in making some for William...

Have fun making your baby legs Jen and William!

Aedan with a pair of his baby legs looking all rocker like ...and really cute!


Aedan has "talked" for quite a while. saying mama, bu-bu (bye) urse for nursing ect.

But he usually repeats the syllable over and over like a babble. Bu-bu-bu-bu- upupupupupup, dadadadada

He means what he is saying, he knows that sound has meaning. But he hadn't mastered it into a single syllable word.

I've been noticing this week he is not repeating it as often and bringing it down to less syllables.

So today when I was sitting on my bed typing a letter to our playgroup about our meeting, I only had a few lines left to type. Aedan was mildly fussing for me to pick him up next to the bed.

I kept my head down typing as fast as I could... I Had to complete the letter , it had already been interrupted 4 times!

He then let out a loud grunt - it got my attention, I looked at him and said "Aedan what would you like?"

He raised his arm high, scowled at me for not paying him attention earlier and forcefully, in a low and commanding voice, with one syllable said


I nearly burst laughing at this - My little boy was being so serious and finally caught onto saying it like a word and said it with such energy I HAD to laugh.

He didn't think it was very funny and as he sat on my lap he grunted again and kept his scowl at me.

I tried not to smile to show my empathy at the seriousness of his situation.... whatever it was I still did not know. Apparently picking him up wasn't all he wanted.

I just said Oh I'm sorry for laughing, is there something I can do for you?

With the same force and seriousness he then in a low powerful voice said


Yup... he was hungry and stayed latched on for a long time too.

I guess we will be moving into the realm of real words... I'm so excited and love this communication with him.

Does he sleep through the night?

The easy answer would be yes. No one would believe me, and it would be a lie, but sometimes this is all I want to answer as people don't believe the other part I have to say to the truth.

The truth is no, he does not sleep through the night, and I love that.I've grown used to sleeping in smaller chunks and just going to bed a little earlier to get all my hours needed

I love my baby waking in search of me, wanting my touch to help him ease back down to sleep. I love being wanted and needed the way he needs me. While the responsibility of night time parenting is often looked on as a burden, I really do look onto it as an extension of the love and attention I can give him in the day. It's an extra chance to bond. In the still quiet of the night, I can study his face, his skin his long eye lashes, hug him, watch his chest rise and fall, rock him and kiss him, and it's only in the night he won't squirm away to play.

I know night waking is only a small season of parenting my baby, and I'm patient with it, knowing it soon will pass, and I will miss my midnight cuddles and quiet time with my baby boy.

Aedan plays hide and seek

I let Aedan play on our living room carpet while I get stuff done while I'm in the livingroom, folding laundry, sort papers play on the lap top ect.

I walked out of the room 2 MAYBE 3 min to get a snack and when I came back in Aedan wasn't there.

"OH MY GOD... Wheres My baby!!!"

We live on a busy street and I occasionally worry that someone might walk in the house... take the baby... you know that irrational paranoid worry that's ingrained in every mom.The mom paranoia makes me always keep the doors locked.

So, naturally the first thing I did was run to the front door to check that it was still locked.

Thankfully it was, but I've still lost my baby.

I was near loosing it while I went back to the room and I heard "mama" back toward the living room... or maybe was it the dining room.

I get in there I can't see him or hear him... Am I loosing it??

Then I hear it again, "mama" ,very muffled.

He was UNDER the couch under the skirt of the couch.


I've never felt so worried over something so ridiculous... and probably should have been obvious.

Moral of the story?? The irrational panic has to be shelved and my life of being a mother of a mostly immobile baby will eventually come to an end, baby proofing must begin.

- I think I'll start by taking the legs off the couch.

Solids ... yuck!

They arn't going so well... Aedan isn't really a fan of them.

We are taking a break from trying anything right now and I'm coming back trying a new theory of baby's first foods called "baby led weaning" that doesn't use any puree's ect. Here is a website with a quick overview

And here is how solid feeding is going so far... with almost any food we've tried.

6 months old!

Time has just flown! I can't believe my little boy is already 6 months old. He has so much personality now, seems to have his own sence of humor and can predict whats going on next by observing us - one of his favorite hobby's is people watching.

He squeels with glee, has full blown belly laughs, an infectious smile. Hes grown so tall and so strong at over 22 lbs now. His eyes are still vivid blue,has a facination with other babies and children, all my mirrors are coverd in wonderful baby finger prints.

He gives hugs and kisses and misses us when we are gone. When holding him in a cradle hold he is too long to stay cuddles securely in your arms and instead has a limb or two outstretching from your body.

Over this past month he has learned to clap. He does it to ask for singing, or just when he is so overcome with happiness. Its so cute to see him smile so big his cheeks squish his eyes into little half moons as he so great fully celebrates with his little chubby hands and fingers coming together.

He is a pro at sitting on his own and is beginning to push himself back up if he falls sideways. He is not showing many signs of wanting to be mobile, but he is learning to be a bit bossy as he sits there with an outstretched arm and hand as he forcefully yells "AHHHHH AHH AHH AHH" at an object till someone else gets it for him.

He is learning to pull up, he has always loved standing. And if it were his choice, he'd spend hours jumping in his jumper.

Our little boy is growing so fast. It's unbelievable.

We're a package deal!

It's amazing how a little baby can bring a couple even closer. When we got married some changes in our relationship came. I always talked about it like falling in love again.

But having a Baby - wow, has that totally changed our life! Especially our commitment as a family.

Even after we got married we did sort of split responsibilities, money, chores and expected the other to do certain things. ( when it was the others turn to do dishes, we would let them pile sky high cause "it wasn't my turn ...")

But having Aedan has made us pull together stronger. Everything we do is for the our family. He is so dependent on us - so there is no time for "games" of who's turn it is to do a certain chore.

There is that biological need right now too that bonds us together. Breastfeeding has been an amazing experience. Nature has programed moms to stay by baby's side.I'd like to think that the protective and helpful side of Drew is completely choice, but I'm sure instinct plays a bit of part for him as well. I know a couple single mom's and I'm awe struck what they do by themselves. I don't know I'd be strong enough to go it alone.

I had minimal understanding before why parents would want to stay in with their baby or drag their baby with them everywhere they go.I sure know now, it's not a burden at all. Between that instinctive closeness and biological needs parents feel,the best part of all is just the genuine love and excitement to watch your baby in everyday activities. Every experience for the parents is a new learning experience for your child. The world does revolve around your amazing creation.

Also all the time we spend together is pretty precious to us. Aedan is growing so fast and there is so much to show him. There was a time when we'd be ecstatic to see him smile even just once in a day - even if it wasn't really a smile and only gas. Now we live for that one time in the day he gets up on his knees on his own, or breaks out in a giggle fit without prompting him. Watching him figure out how to clap his hands, and watch other people and babies with intrigue.

I'm lucky to stay home everyday to watch this. Drew has to go off to work and only has a few hours everyday with Aedan. It's tough on Drew, but he squeezes in all the time he can with him. Something surprising ( though it shouldn't have been) is Drew has decided to put going to his guys night on hold for a while. Between wonky work schedules, and not seeing his baby for a whole day - it just wasn't worth it to him.
He misses the guys - But really enjoys his time with his son more than he misses them.

I too have passed up a couple events that wouldn't be appropriate to bring Aedan. I love my friends, but I love my baby more.

Drew and I have been out on only a small handful of short baby-less dates, and while we had fun - We talked about how we missed him through much of those dates.

So for the time being - I guess were a package deal. We need and want to be together.If your expecting only one of us to show at an event - your probably mistaken for now. It'll likely be all three or none at all.

Sorry If we've turned down an invite here or there, we love our friends and extended family, but were still getting to know our little family, and nothing could be more important than that right now.

Emotional Challenges

I think the biggest challenge as mom for me , so far ,is to see my baby in pain and not be able to do anything more to comfort him except hug him.

He's been sick a few times, and had to deal with his shots, and all of this has really sucked.

And now he is having teething pain. I can use the homeopathic drops, the numbing gel, the pain reliver medications.

But still he whimpers in my arms. As I rock him in my rocking chair.

He so desperately wants to sleep,He pushes his head against me and closes his eyes as tight as he can, But the pain is so bad he grinds his jaw, grips me so tight he has left little bruises on me. With each rock backwards lets out a whimper . His body sweats as he works through the pain,my shoulder gets soaked in his drool, its too painful to swallow. Sometimes I feel every muscle in his body tense up.After maybe 20 - 30min ( when we are lucky)he'll finally fall asleep, Only to wake again 20 min later because of the pain. and we start the process all over again.

It seems so unfair. My job as a mom is to love him, protect him and keep him from harm. All I can do is hold him, rock him, and tell him I love him.It breaks my heart that this isn't enough.

Before teething began, I was sort of sad at the prospect of loosing those gummy smiles.It would mean my little boy is growing again. That soon he won't be my little baby and be my little child

But now I can't wait for those teeth to come through so he can get some relief.

More 5 month pictures

I found to use with Picasa... so I have some new addictions.

Aedans First trip to Niagara Falls

I'm begining to Love Drews Days off, Advetures are so much more fun with him!

We picked up the backpack child carrier at a consignment store for a really good deal and decided it would be worth a try to check it out on a hike to the falls.

Aedan stayed awake until we started our whole walk down the length of the falls.. He didn't like the mist of the cold water falling on his face so much, he kept shaking his head and brushing his nose, I have to admit on a hot day like today it felt like icy pins and needles, welcome to cool you down, but kind of not at the same time.As we got close to the edge with the rush and the roar he stared wide eyed in amazement, nothing could take his gaze off! It's amazing as a parent to watch your child veiw the world with fresh eye's. You just have to wonder what he was thinking.

We walked through some of the gardens in the parks and nursed under a huge shade tree then called it a day to get back to the infant massage class at 6:00

On our walk back Aedan finally passed out against his daddy's Back for a good long nap.

an "Ah-Ha! " moment

Our house has three steps and a porch for both our front and back doors.

It hasn't been a problem when he fit into the infant carrier and I just clipped it out to bring in the house. But he is getting a little big for that now... he is so heavy to lug around, I've been walking with just the stroller now.

When Taking Aedan for a walk and I get home and if he's sleeping it's been tricky to pick him up out of the stroller and lay him down without waking him.... I've actually gone walking longer just to let him get a good nap in before I have to wake him when we get home.

Well I FINALLY figured out how to get the stroller up the steps with a sleeping babe in it.

I go backwards rolling the back wheels up slowly slowly, just like you would a dolly holding a pile of boxes, then into the house we can go and I can let him finish his nap in the stroller.

WHY oh WHY didn't I figure this out earlier

Crunchy Mama!

5 months ago I had no idea the mom I was going to be. I did a tonne of reading and had all sorts of perspectives and professionals differing opinions ready as tools to help me help my baby when he came. I knew most of it would fall into place as it comes, but I was so nervous about my new role that was about to come.

Now I'm pretty confident about the kind of mom I am. Its amazing to think of me on my due date nervous of my new role to come with our new arrival.

I've already been called by several people "over protective" a "Germophobe" and told I'm "Spoiling" my baby. I've been told I should be feeding my baby solids earlier, that our sleeping habits are wrong, and that I'll get him to used to being carried if I keep picking him up when he cries. I've been told "Oh thats how all first mothers are" and so on.

At first some of these statements used to make me second guess how I was managing my baby, I'd re-evaluate what I'm doing compared to others opions. But all it needed to come back to is what works for Aedan and me and his dad and I would see it's working out almost perfect, that what we were doing felt right in all of our instincts as parents.

I'm actually becoming prouder of these slightly judgmental statements as it's telling me I'm doing my job.

I'm proud to say I'm a Breastfeeding, baby wearing, co-sleeping attachment parenting Mama. ( I would be cloth diapering too if it didn't cause my baby so many rashes).

I didn't expect to become such a crunchy mama. But here I am. It works and it just feels so right.

Aedans Vaxinations

Aedan has had quite a few adventures with me since I've last posted here. I seem to be barley home to touch the computer... I'll try to get some updates in while he naps today. I'm hoping t have a couple more quiet days to get caught up with general housework, email and phone calls... oh and blogging too!

Aedan had his 4 month shots about 2 weeks ago. His 2 month shots gave him some nasty reactions, so I didn't expect these ones to go too well either. While they weren't as bad as I thought they might be, they were a little tough for my guy.

I have a split mind about vaxinations, I used to work in health food stores so I know all the nasty stuff about them. I know some of the long term side effects that can happen, and how hard it is on the short term in a tiny baby. With most other people being vaxinated, I know that the chance of my baby's exposure is minimal on a normal daily basis.

On the other hand, the job I'm going back to, I will be dealing with immigrants. There is also a Daycare available for our clients... Andrew now works in a call center dealing with the same nasty keyboards and breathing the same air in close quarters with several hundred other people. So if a nasty exotic germ may abound,we work in the right places to bring it home.

I hate having those split feeling about these parts of parenting. No choice feels like the right choice.

He got his shots, I waited in another room to nurse him while Andrew stayed with him.Much like his 2 month shots, the first one was no issue, but there was much crying with the second one... So sad.

I held my screaming baby tightly so he could calm down to nurse. He didn't nurse as hard as he did the first time, but he had a good full belly.

After that all seemed well.

But it took until the evening for a fever to break. I kept him on Tylenol for 3 days, he still got a rash, fevered and cried a lot.Unlike last time, he rebounded to his normal self pretty quickly.

We have a check up at 5 months... thank goodness no needles for that one.

Oh and at his last check up Aedan was 17.5 lbs and 27 inches long!! Not too much longer in his infant seat, I guess we better start looking for a new one!

Baby Naps

On Grey days when it's not stormy, Aedan has my favourite kind of naps...

It's one of those days today.

He Fights to stay asleep and needs me constantly to fall back asleep. He will half wake - but with his eyes still closed, fighting to STAY asleep -with this little wine that he can't fall back asleep himself, That he needs me. Thats about every 25- 45 min, but these "Naps" go on the better part of the day for 5-7 hours.

The best part about them is I can get right up close to him,he sences me there then he stops whining instantly. I just hold his tiny little hand, get as close as I can and say in the quietest voice - almost a whisper. Things like "I love you" and "Your such a good boy", as well as all the things that pour out of my heart about how speacial he is.

He will half open his drowsy eyes at the sound of my voice to look me in the eyes and give the best little smile as if to say - "I love you" "Thanks for being here - I'm SO Comfortable in my nap, I'm having the best dreams" and "Why don't you join me?"

Slowly with a smile on his face off to sleep he drifts till he calls me again.

It's these tender moments I love.

Spartian Baby

Drew Likes the Movie 300
He also loves our baby
AND, he knows how to use photoshop

This IS Aedan!

Aedan can sit!!!

He keeps growing too fast... I'm so proud of him

So now here is my boastful picture!

Baby Talk

Here is a picture of Aedan in his green frog sleeper with most of the other babies in our baby talk group.

Aedan and I have been able to get out of the house almost everyday. But one of my favorite things has been going to our "baby talk" group held in the community room at the Superstore.It's great to be around other moms and get lots of information.

One of the best things about being in the room is you can see all sides of a babies personality in any given minute ( For example check out the little guy at 7:00)

I hope to convince some of these ladies to create a "Play group" once our last session is done on May 30th.

What a wonderful weekend!

We couldn't help but get out, At first we thought we were going to go to Niagara falls, But the idea of the traffic and crowds on the weekend weren't that appealing, so we went to port Dalhousie instead.

Parking was ridiculous there because of some motorcycle show, but we found a place and walked down to the waterfront and ate a packed lunch as Aedan felt the wind blow across him. He LOVES being outside.

Yes he took notice of the geese and ducks, his daddy carried him and his hat kept slipping over his face, but he was a trooper.

What a wonderful family day, I wish everyday was like this.

Aedans First Swim!

Today I packed up everything we needed to go swimming at the Y during family time and we had a lot of Fun.

We went early before open swim and I got us both dressed so Aedan could watch the other kids swimming during their lessons and get used to the big open pool environment and get used to the smell in the air.He was just electric with excitement watching everything around him. He was letting out coos and little squeals.

He charmed the lifeguards ... of course, and they came right over to meet him.

When I let them know it was my first swim with him, they got right in with me and taught me how to keep him warm and how to float him on his back get him to kick when floating on his tummy ( He kept his head up so well!) and how to "Dunk" him under because they naturally hold their breath at this age ( I didn't know that!) He had so much fun and LOVED being dunked.

I would bob him up and down while counting to 3. At "3" He would spread his arms Legs and fingers and toes as wide as he could Open his eyes wide, pucker his lips tight and as soon as he was under he would blow bubbles with his nose.

He came up smiling and Giggling each time ready to go down again!

We only stayed in 10 - 15 min... He WOULD have stayed in longer, but I didn't want to over do it for him.

The hard part was showering and dressing 2 wet bodies after - THAT takes talent

We had a tonne of fun and hope to go again on Friday with his Daddy

Aedan LOVES to cuddle

Did I ever mention Aedan LOVES to cuddle?? He has a very hard time sleeping unless he's got a good stuffed animal to cuddle up to :)

Thumb Sucking accidents

Aedan took a Pacifier from 2 weeks old to 8 weeks old, then stopped completley.

Aedan refuses to take a pacifier now that he knows he can EVENTUALLY get his thumb i his mouth... BUT he only has about %20 accuracy for each attempt.

That poor kid, he has the gross motor skills with his arms to get them about where he wants, but the fine motor skills need some tuning up.

Even though I have trimmed his nails, he keeps nabbing himself in the face, He has long scratches and the occasional short jab .. he actually cut the outside of his nostril... there was blood and LOTS of screaming, but still he persists

Today I decided during play time we would focus on fine motor skills so I helped him learn to grab toys off his bumbo tray using his hands ... not his arms to scoop them up, he seems to be getting it but needs lots of practice. But he still prefers to scoop his toys upto his face and try to suck on them

Who knew learning to suck your thumb could be so difficult??

Aedan is Sick

Poor Aedan, he has tonsillitis. We went to the Dr on Friday the 13th to get his shots, and I told the Dr. that Aedan had been acting far more cranky than usual and although he IS learning to use his arms better, he seemed to be repeatedly punching hard into the air with his left fist. That although he was on Tylenol in preparation for the shots he was hot and sweaty.

Well the Dr looked in his mouth and said there was an abscess on his left tonsil ( why he was punching on that side) and that he has tonsillitis.

What that means - Antibiotics for Aedan and wait a week before we can give him shots.

He has a rough couple weeks now, feeling icky from being sick and slide right into feeling icky from his shots.

It sure is a rough life being a baby...

Car seat instalation


"Turn the camera off" comments
instruction book flipping
Confusion and frustration
Overstuffed glove compartment slamming
Bad hair day Anger

Aedans Birth

No messy business...
Peer into the delivery room moments after Aedan was born.

Starts with his first cries being weighed and first hugs with mom.

Thanks to Courtney Bishop for having the mind to grab the Video Camera and start to record this most amazing event.

Video Editing

Now that I've learned how to edit videos myself, you'll be able to check back more often to see videos of Aedan. I'm working on uploading certain videos now. I may post the links before You tube is done processing the video so it may say they are not available... that can take up to 8 hours to finish processing. YEAH more to share!

A Bump in the Road

I've been doing pretty good these past 9 weeks. I've been proud of myself and amazed at how well my body is rebounding after 9 months of carrying a baby. Every few days I jump on the scale and am even more impressed with how the weight is shedding off. I've been eating healthy, walking everyday, and in my opinion doing everything right.

However, as a new mom we are always told to "Take it easy" which honestly I haven't. In fact over this past week I've felt like super mom getting things done, keeping a happy baby, and still getting some time in for me. But My energy was silently teetering, and a visit to my grandmothers made it crumble.

I love my grandmother. I remember as a little girl calling her almost daily and talking with her. I'd say I probably have talked with her at least weekly with the exception of the past 2 - 3 months. I've always been able to rely on her. She is a Tell-it-like-it-is sort of woman. When I watch "Everybody loves Raymond" Marie reminds me of my grandmother. She can insult you with love. I go there ready to ignore and protect myself from the occasional off hand remark.

As a side note - 2 things that should never be talked about around a new mom is her post partum body, and how she should raise her child.

She went on for about 45 minutes telling me how I looked frumpy and she was worried about me. That the last time she saw me ( I was only 1 week post partum) I seemed to have awful sticky stuff all through my hair and I ought not go in public looking like that.

-No doubt it was my hair slightly more greasy from all the hormonal changes and hot flash sweats I had been getting. If that weren't enough she threw in a few how I should be raising my son comment to boot.

the sad part is, although I only have about 3 outfits that fit me comfortably right now, Its not worth buying anything new when the weight is falling off me, I picked out the one I felt best in, the one I felt good in, she picked it to pieces.

It's ridiculous, but her words from yesterday keep coming through my head and it's chipping at my confidence each time it does and it's hard to control and quiet the thoughts.

I only remember 1 other time I felt self conscious about my body image and that was when I was 12, I was teased about my hair as it was growing out from a horrible short hair perm my grandmother had done to my hair. It took years to grow out as my hair was fried.I never wanted the perm, but you don't say no to grandma.

I came home in tears about the teasing and my mom took me out and got me some barettes and head bands to hold back my unruly bangs, and I made sure to comb it out frequently.

Since I was 12 I have been proud of my body. I have NEVER let anyone take me down about how I look. I have been proud of how strong it is, I've been told so often that people love my smile. I've been proud that I have been on a long portage through Algonquin, that I can lift things that most women can't -I have more endurance than most ,that I can walk everywhere ,that I carried a baby, I loved my pregnant body.That I pushed my baby out and that I am able to nurse him.

So now you have this woman who has been confident about her body for nearly 15 years have done some amazing things with it and now suddenly can cry every time those words go through her head - just like that 12 year old girl 15 years ago who got teased and bullied about her hair.

Sticks and stones may break my bones
But it's words that hurt the worst.

Sleep Training Through a Baby's Perspective...

OK, here's my situation. My Mommy has had me for almost 7 months. The first few months were great-- I cried, she picked me up and fed me, anytime, day or night. Then something happened.

Over the last few weeks, she has been trying to STTN (sleep thru the night). At first, I thought it was just a phase, but it is only getting worse. I've talked to other babies, and it seems like it's pretty common after Mommies have had us for around 6 months.

Here's the thing: these Mommies don't really need to sleep. It's just a habit. Many of them have had some 30 years to sleep--they just don't need it anymore. So I am implementing a plan. I call it the Crybaby Shuffle.

It goes like this:

Night 1--cry every 3 hours until you get fed.

I know, it's hard. It's hard to see your Mommy upset over your crying.

Just keep reminding yourself, it's for her own good.

Night 2--cry every 2 hours until you get fed.

Night 3--every hour.

Most Mommies will start to respond more quickly after about 3 nights.

Some Mommies are more alert, and may resist the change longer. These Mommies may stand in your doorway for hours, shhhh-ing. Don't give in. I cannot stress this enough: CONSISTENCY IS KEY!!

If you let her STTN (sleep through the night), just once, she will expect it every night. I KNOW IT'S HARD! But she really does not need the sleep, she is just resisting the change.

If you have an especially alert Mommy, you can stop crying for about 10 minutes, just long enough for her to go back to bed and start to fall asleep. Then cry again. It WILL eventually work. My Mommy once stayed awake for 10 hours straight, so I know she can do it.

Last night, I cried every hour. You just have to decide to stick to it and just go for it. BE CONSISTENT!

I cried for any reason I could come up with. My sleep sack tickled my foot. I felt a wrinkle under the sheet. My mobile made a shadow on the wall. I burped, and it tasted like pears. I hadn't eaten pears since lunch, what's up with that? The cat said "meow". I should know. My Mommy reminds me of this about 20 times a day. LOL. Once I cried just because I liked how it sounded when it echoed on the monitor in the other room.

Too hot, too cold, just right--doesn't matter! Keep crying!!

It took awhile, but it worked. She fed me at 4am. Tomorrow night, my goal is 3:30am.

You need to slowly shorten the interval between feedings in order to reset your Mommies' internal clocks.

P.S. Don't let those rubber things fool you, no matter how long you suck on them, no milk will come out. Trust me.

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