Misery Loves Company

Jen is pregnant too! While I'm super happy for her and Adam, I'm even MORE happy to have a friend along for the ride. More of a selfish happy that I don't need to summon all the courage on my own! ( Arn't I such a good friend??)

We can do this!

Congratz Adam And Jen!
So I May have ruined the suprise for Drew to tell his parents, But atleast I feel involved in telling them!

My MSN conversation with my Father in Law tonight!

Scott says:
Whats with the WHOOO HOOOO!
Becca..... WHOOO HOOOO! says:
Drew will tell you when he comes over tonight
Scott says:
Okay, Keeping us in suspense....
Becca..... WHOOO HOOOO! says:
Scott says:
Becca..... WHOOO HOOOO! says:
Can you take the suspence? Drew hates suprises....
Scott says:
Yah, I can take the suspense.
Scott says:
Lorie on the other hand, want's a hint RIGHT NOW!
Becca..... WHOOO HOOOO! says:
Drew is on the phone with me and he says NO HINTS
Becca..... WHOOO HOOOO! says:
and now I know where Drew gets it
Scott says:
Oooooh, Which one of them were you saying can't handle surprises
Becca..... WHOOO HOOOO! says:
Drew is now forbidding me to talk to you cause he doesn't think I can keep secrets
Becca..... WHOOO HOOOO! says:
And he never gets to have suprises so he doesn't want me ruining it
Becca..... WHOOO HOOOO! says:
Any way I have to go and Drew will be there in about a half hour
Becca..... WHOOO HOOOO! says:
Becca..... WHOOO HOOOO! says:
Scott says:
Okay, Sitting on pins and needles. But I'll wait for Andrew to spring the surprise. I'm signing off now and will wait in the driveway in a lawn chair being eaten by mosquitos. And when I look like a need a blood transfusion or I've been rolling in poison ivy,....
I told my Mom Today, She was excited, but seemed a little stunned, I'm sure it will really sink in in a couple more days

this is the poem we gave her and will give my Father and Drews Parents as well.


I do not have a face to see,
Or put inside a frame.
I do not have soft cheeks to kiss.
I don't yet have a name.

You can't yet hold my tiny hands,
Nor whisper in my ear.
It's still too soon to sing a song,
Or cuddle me so near.

But all will change come January 27th,
Thats when they say I'm due.
I'm your new grandchild,
I can't wait till I meet you!

All I ask between now and then,
Is your patience while I grow.
I promise I'll be worth the wait,
Because of all the love we'll know.

So have a happy day,
A wish to you from me.
I can't wait to be a part,
Of this wonderful family!

The Dr. Apointment.

The usual Dr. I see wasn't there and his usual backup was called into the hospital for an emergency. The Dr. I saw was like so you know your pregnant why Are you here? I said to make sure my arrangments and referral to the Dr. who wil deliver my baby. And because the Nusre said I should come in. For blood tests

He flat out said that wouldn't be done until 8 weeks.We were stunned at how he seemed to go against My Family Dr. wishes! I told him about the cramps he was like " That happens, %25 of all pregnancies end in some kind of miscarriage don't be suprised if that happens" we asked what we should do about it he said wait it out a loss this early donsnt require a D&C and it's not really that big of a deal!?!

He said he doesn't see people before 8 weeks and us being there was pointless. Our treatment and his bedside manner was SO BAD . I left that office feeling completly stupid for even going. I felt talked down to and he treated my like some kind of hypochandric. Then I realized he didn't even peek at my blood type if the worse did happen, he didnt order another Beta like the Nurse said was wanted, or check to see if cramps were a Urinary Tract Infection wich is common in Early pregnancy. We were pretty angry. I'll call my regular Dr. when he is back in next week. Chances are though that he will call me when he sees that second beta that he wanted wasn't done. After the apointment Drew went to work ( 40 min drive away from home in St. Catharines) and we woudn't be going back home till he was done at 9:30 at night. I thought I was gonna be OK and told him to just leave me at my Moms house, She was gone for the afternoon. about 30 seconds after Drew was out of the driveway I was in absolute tears and that %25 statistic kept ringing in my ears. I felt like I was gonna fall apart! I kept trying to pull myself together.

Finally I called a good friend ( Jen) who was one of my bridesmaids who thankfully was home. I really needed someone to come get me and distract me for the day cause I was not having a good day, and being sad would just make the situation worse. She did, and thankfully, She is such an amazing friend! We played video games went for a walk on the Lakeshore, she showed me her projects she was working on and we drove around and she talked alot, I needed the air filled with words of distraction. She made me feel tonnes better. I Didn't tell her I was pregnant. I sort of wish I did. But it's not time yet, I havn't even told my mom.

The cramps have minimized a little this evening and we are hoping we can chalk them up to "abdominal pressure" like is mentioned in the book "what to expect when your expecting" I'm so happy my boobs stopped hurting, but I woke up to them not fitting a single bra I own and they look like a road map of veins. They Changed Overnight!. I've been wearing one of my sport bras today, But I guess I'm gonna have to go out and get a couple more new ones. Also today when we were out I was talking about how I already feel awkward shopping. I need new spring/Summer clothing but know i"m gonna want stuff to breast feed in later, but don't want to buy maternity clothes yet cause I'm not even showing. I was so frustrated with the situation I was near to tears. Drew just smiled and said, " i guess this mood swing means your still pregnant" It was so funny at that moment.

Cramps and worry

I Go to the Dr. Today.

Last night my breasts started to hurt really badly. It hurts to even walk up and down the STAIRS!!! I Know that is normal in early pregnancy.

However, I'm really worried cause I started getting really bad cramps like my period is coming. I hope I don't loose the baby. I see the dr. today so I will bring it up!

Feeling nervous!

Beta Reults!

Well, The nurse called and told us we are definetly pregnant!!! Our HCG is at 59 ( wich is low and early pregnancy) She asked me some questions about my cycles and said my Estimated Due Date (EDD) is likley January 27th. She also booked me for a Dr. Apointment for tomorrow to see the Dr. She said it is likley he will want another test to see how the hcg #'s are doubling since it is still really low.

We are REALLY REALLY Pregnant!!


A New Stick

AHHHH! This one is also Light! Why can't it be as clear as they promise??? I Called the Dr. and he is Faxing a Requisition for a blood test tomorrow.

In other news I'm peeing alot!

I peed on a stick again....

Well there were 2 in the box, and the first one was so light, so I did it again. I guess I'm in some sort of denial.

This one is a little darker but ALSO Light, I don't FEEL pregnant. It was the cheapest brand walmart had, so I guess I'll try a better brand in a couple days.

Am I REALLY Pregnant??

We are having a baby!

It is Mothersday, and our first aniversary. And we knew there was a chance I could be pregnant so I pee'd on a stick. This is what it looks like.

It is VERY light, but they say a line is a line .So it looks like I've got a positive pregnancy test with a baby to be born in January or POSSIBLY born in Feb. So I thought I would share what I'm emotionally feeling right now

I havn't had my beta blood test yet so I'm still in a kind of limbo

I am so worried to be pregnant alone. I know other firends that have had babies, but I will be the first one in my group of friends to have a baby.

So here is a small list of what my mind is reeling over

I want to tell the world but want to wait till I know baby will stick
I can't sleep
wondering if it's really really REAL
hoping I don't get mourning sickness
worried I'll forget my folic acid
Worried about being intamate with my husband this early in pregnancy
happy knowing a baby will be in my arms for our next Aniversary
Wondering how we willl tell our parents that they are becoming grandparents for the first time!
curious, excited and nervous about their reaction.
Nervous to tell a good friend who has been TTC for over 3 years and didn't know we were TTC
Can't stop looking at the calender for certian pregnancy milestones to look forward to
still hard to belive it is real
I hope my beta #'s are healthy
I hope this one doesn't turn out like last time.
Wondering how are we gonna manage to put it all together so quick to have baby#1 in our home
Wondering if we were hasty TTC so soon and not enjoy more of our "new marriage" just the two of us
Excited to meet one of the most important people who will be in my life
Excited to begin our family