One of those moments

Aedan didn't stay down for his nap very long today He's still trying to cut through those eye teeth and is very uncomfortable... He also was up too early... so he is running on very little sleep. We have news his friend we visited the other day has the flu or food poisoning - so we could be in line for that too... I hope not.

He's also growing rapidly right now and this is causing him intense leg and foot cramps. I've had to rub down his legs a couple times a day to relieve him of cramps. Some call it the terrible twos I guess.

Pain + no sleep = monster baby.

Its been a tough day tantrum on tantrum crying over everything... and clumsiness that isn't like him so he kept bumping into stuff, and that would just cause him to melt down.

Screaming, whining , crying and sobbing ALL.DAY.

2 words to describe Aedan today

Fragile and Explosive.

Its been so intense there were moments I thought I would cry too... But I wouldn't let myself. I had to keep strong.

Bath time though, is always a release for him. Something about water just calms him right down. Of course bath time was almost an hour early with a day like today... and he didn't quite feel ready to sleep, even though I let him stay in about 30 minutes longer than usual. he was all wrinkled and pruney when I pulled him out of the tub.

I swaddled him in a towel and he melted into me for one of the biggest hugs he's ever given me... he said "love mommy, cuddle mommy"

I needed that.

I couldn't put him to bed right away.

I took my baby all snuggled in a warm towel downstairs. I put on the TV in a dark living room and lay on the couch together we watched "In The Night Garden" He snuggled down onto me, put his head on my chest and I know he was trying to listen to my heartbeat. His body was comfortable, and he was relaxed and happy. That's all I wanted for him all day.

We both fell asleep and I woke up when the show finished.

I carried him upstairs, dressed and diapered him while he was passed out solid - and after some crazy moments today where I just wanted to lock him in another room and plug my ears, at this moment while he was peaceful and warm, happy and quiet, it was hard to leave him.

It's in these moments I feel how in love I really am. I controlled myself earlier in the day... but I couldn't help but weep tears for all the love I have for my boy.

1 comment:

Michella said...

Becca - It is posts like these that keep me coming back to your blog. It really was beautiful. Sorry you both had such a hard day. And, I'm glad Aedan has such a wonderful mommy to be patient and give him an abundance of love.

Keep the posts coming, Becca. Cant wait for the next.