The easy answer would be yes. No one would believe me, and it would be a lie, but sometimes this is all I want to answer as people don't believe the other part I have to say to the truth.
The truth is no, he does not sleep through the night, and I love that.I've grown used to sleeping in smaller chunks and just going to bed a little earlier to get all my hours needed
I love my baby waking in search of me, wanting my touch to help him ease back down to sleep. I love being wanted and needed the way he needs me. While the responsibility of night time parenting is often looked on as a burden, I really do look onto it as an extension of the love and attention I can give him in the day. It's an extra chance to bond. In the still quiet of the night, I can study his face, his skin his long eye lashes, hug him, watch his chest rise and fall, rock him and kiss him, and it's only in the night he won't squirm away to play.
I know night waking is only a small season of parenting my baby, and I'm patient with it, knowing it soon will pass, and I will miss my midnight cuddles and quiet time with my baby boy.
Aedan plays hide and seek
I let Aedan play on our living room carpet while I get stuff done while I'm in the livingroom, folding laundry, sort papers play on the lap top ect.
I walked out of the room 2 MAYBE 3 min to get a snack and when I came back in Aedan wasn't there.
"OH MY GOD... Wheres My baby!!!"
We live on a busy street and I occasionally worry that someone might walk in the house... take the baby... you know that irrational paranoid worry that's ingrained in every mom.The mom paranoia makes me always keep the doors locked.
So, naturally the first thing I did was run to the front door to check that it was still locked.
Thankfully it was, but I've still lost my baby.
I was near loosing it while I went back to the room and I heard "mama" back toward the living room... or maybe was it the dining room.
I get in there I can't see him or hear him... Am I loosing it??
Then I hear it again, "mama" ,very muffled.
He was UNDER the couch under the skirt of the couch.
***RELIEF***
I've never felt so worried over something so ridiculous... and probably should have been obvious.
Moral of the story?? The irrational panic has to be shelved and my life of being a mother of a mostly immobile baby will eventually come to an end, baby proofing must begin.
- I think I'll start by taking the legs off the couch.
I walked out of the room 2 MAYBE 3 min to get a snack and when I came back in Aedan wasn't there.
"OH MY GOD... Wheres My baby!!!"
We live on a busy street and I occasionally worry that someone might walk in the house... take the baby... you know that irrational paranoid worry that's ingrained in every mom.The mom paranoia makes me always keep the doors locked.
So, naturally the first thing I did was run to the front door to check that it was still locked.
Thankfully it was, but I've still lost my baby.
I was near loosing it while I went back to the room and I heard "mama" back toward the living room... or maybe was it the dining room.
I get in there I can't see him or hear him... Am I loosing it??
Then I hear it again, "mama" ,very muffled.
He was UNDER the couch under the skirt of the couch.
***RELIEF***
I've never felt so worried over something so ridiculous... and probably should have been obvious.
Moral of the story?? The irrational panic has to be shelved and my life of being a mother of a mostly immobile baby will eventually come to an end, baby proofing must begin.
- I think I'll start by taking the legs off the couch.
Solids ... yuck!
They arn't going so well... Aedan isn't really a fan of them.
We are taking a break from trying anything right now and I'm coming back trying a new theory of baby's first foods called "baby led weaning" that doesn't use any puree's ect. Here is a website with a quick overview
And here is how solid feeding is going so far... with almost any food we've tried.
We are taking a break from trying anything right now and I'm coming back trying a new theory of baby's first foods called "baby led weaning" that doesn't use any puree's ect. Here is a website with a quick overview
And here is how solid feeding is going so far... with almost any food we've tried.
6 months old!
Time has just flown! I can't believe my little boy is already 6 months old. He has so much personality now, seems to have his own sence of humor and can predict whats going on next by observing us - one of his favorite hobby's is people watching.
He squeels with glee, has full blown belly laughs, an infectious smile. Hes grown so tall and so strong at over 22 lbs now. His eyes are still vivid blue,has a facination with other babies and children, all my mirrors are coverd in wonderful baby finger prints.
He gives hugs and kisses and misses us when we are gone. When holding him in a cradle hold he is too long to stay cuddles securely in your arms and instead has a limb or two outstretching from your body.
Over this past month he has learned to clap. He does it to ask for singing, or just when he is so overcome with happiness. Its so cute to see him smile so big his cheeks squish his eyes into little half moons as he so great fully celebrates with his little chubby hands and fingers coming together.
He is a pro at sitting on his own and is beginning to push himself back up if he falls sideways. He is not showing many signs of wanting to be mobile, but he is learning to be a bit bossy as he sits there with an outstretched arm and hand as he forcefully yells "AHHHHH AHH AHH AHH" at an object till someone else gets it for him.
He is learning to pull up, he has always loved standing. And if it were his choice, he'd spend hours jumping in his jumper.
Our little boy is growing so fast. It's unbelievable.
He squeels with glee, has full blown belly laughs, an infectious smile. Hes grown so tall and so strong at over 22 lbs now. His eyes are still vivid blue,has a facination with other babies and children, all my mirrors are coverd in wonderful baby finger prints.
He gives hugs and kisses and misses us when we are gone. When holding him in a cradle hold he is too long to stay cuddles securely in your arms and instead has a limb or two outstretching from your body.
Over this past month he has learned to clap. He does it to ask for singing, or just when he is so overcome with happiness. Its so cute to see him smile so big his cheeks squish his eyes into little half moons as he so great fully celebrates with his little chubby hands and fingers coming together.
He is a pro at sitting on his own and is beginning to push himself back up if he falls sideways. He is not showing many signs of wanting to be mobile, but he is learning to be a bit bossy as he sits there with an outstretched arm and hand as he forcefully yells "AHHHHH AHH AHH AHH" at an object till someone else gets it for him.
He is learning to pull up, he has always loved standing. And if it were his choice, he'd spend hours jumping in his jumper.
Our little boy is growing so fast. It's unbelievable.
We're a package deal!
It's amazing how a little baby can bring a couple even closer. When we got married some changes in our relationship came. I always talked about it like falling in love again.
But having a Baby - wow, has that totally changed our life! Especially our commitment as a family.
Even after we got married we did sort of split responsibilities, money, chores and expected the other to do certain things. ( when it was the others turn to do dishes, we would let them pile sky high cause "it wasn't my turn ...")
But having Aedan has made us pull together stronger. Everything we do is for the our family. He is so dependent on us - so there is no time for "games" of who's turn it is to do a certain chore.
There is that biological need right now too that bonds us together. Breastfeeding has been an amazing experience. Nature has programed moms to stay by baby's side.I'd like to think that the protective and helpful side of Drew is completely choice, but I'm sure instinct plays a bit of part for him as well. I know a couple single mom's and I'm awe struck what they do by themselves. I don't know I'd be strong enough to go it alone.
I had minimal understanding before why parents would want to stay in with their baby or drag their baby with them everywhere they go.I sure know now, it's not a burden at all. Between that instinctive closeness and biological needs parents feel,the best part of all is just the genuine love and excitement to watch your baby in everyday activities. Every experience for the parents is a new learning experience for your child. The world does revolve around your amazing creation.
Also all the time we spend together is pretty precious to us. Aedan is growing so fast and there is so much to show him. There was a time when we'd be ecstatic to see him smile even just once in a day - even if it wasn't really a smile and only gas. Now we live for that one time in the day he gets up on his knees on his own, or breaks out in a giggle fit without prompting him. Watching him figure out how to clap his hands, and watch other people and babies with intrigue.
I'm lucky to stay home everyday to watch this. Drew has to go off to work and only has a few hours everyday with Aedan. It's tough on Drew, but he squeezes in all the time he can with him. Something surprising ( though it shouldn't have been) is Drew has decided to put going to his guys night on hold for a while. Between wonky work schedules, and not seeing his baby for a whole day - it just wasn't worth it to him.
He misses the guys - But really enjoys his time with his son more than he misses them.
I too have passed up a couple events that wouldn't be appropriate to bring Aedan. I love my friends, but I love my baby more.
Drew and I have been out on only a small handful of short baby-less dates, and while we had fun - We talked about how we missed him through much of those dates.
So for the time being - I guess were a package deal. We need and want to be together.If your expecting only one of us to show at an event - your probably mistaken for now. It'll likely be all three or none at all.
Sorry If we've turned down an invite here or there, we love our friends and extended family, but were still getting to know our little family, and nothing could be more important than that right now.
Emotional Challenges
I think the biggest challenge as mom for me , so far ,is to see my baby in pain and not be able to do anything more to comfort him except hug him.
He's been sick a few times, and had to deal with his shots, and all of this has really sucked.
And now he is having teething pain. I can use the homeopathic drops, the numbing gel, the pain reliver medications.
But still he whimpers in my arms. As I rock him in my rocking chair.
He so desperately wants to sleep,He pushes his head against me and closes his eyes as tight as he can, But the pain is so bad he grinds his jaw, grips me so tight he has left little bruises on me. With each rock backwards lets out a whimper . His body sweats as he works through the pain,my shoulder gets soaked in his drool, its too painful to swallow. Sometimes I feel every muscle in his body tense up.After maybe 20 - 30min ( when we are lucky)he'll finally fall asleep, Only to wake again 20 min later because of the pain. and we start the process all over again.
It seems so unfair. My job as a mom is to love him, protect him and keep him from harm. All I can do is hold him, rock him, and tell him I love him.It breaks my heart that this isn't enough.
Before teething began, I was sort of sad at the prospect of loosing those gummy smiles.It would mean my little boy is growing again. That soon he won't be my little baby and be my little child
But now I can't wait for those teeth to come through so he can get some relief.
He's been sick a few times, and had to deal with his shots, and all of this has really sucked.
And now he is having teething pain. I can use the homeopathic drops, the numbing gel, the pain reliver medications.
But still he whimpers in my arms. As I rock him in my rocking chair.
He so desperately wants to sleep,He pushes his head against me and closes his eyes as tight as he can, But the pain is so bad he grinds his jaw, grips me so tight he has left little bruises on me. With each rock backwards lets out a whimper . His body sweats as he works through the pain,my shoulder gets soaked in his drool, its too painful to swallow. Sometimes I feel every muscle in his body tense up.After maybe 20 - 30min ( when we are lucky)he'll finally fall asleep, Only to wake again 20 min later because of the pain. and we start the process all over again.
It seems so unfair. My job as a mom is to love him, protect him and keep him from harm. All I can do is hold him, rock him, and tell him I love him.It breaks my heart that this isn't enough.
Before teething began, I was sort of sad at the prospect of loosing those gummy smiles.It would mean my little boy is growing again. That soon he won't be my little baby and be my little child
But now I can't wait for those teeth to come through so he can get some relief.
More 5 month pictures
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